It’s okay to feel like that sometimes, right? As long as I snap out of it within an hour or so.
I had read an article on BlogHer about a mom that didn’t like the other moms around her at her child’s school. Not that she was a Negative Nancy or anything. She had some legitimate reasons – at least, in my opinion she did.
They were the same reasons that I didn’t befriend any moms when my teens were attending public school years ago. I didn’t have anything in common with them. It wasn’t that it bothered me about that fact. It bothered them.
When my son (my oldest) started kindergarten, I was 25… and I looked about 18. The other moms were in their 30s.
Hey, I tried to be nice and friendly. I tried to make play-dates and even volunteered to host Girl Scout meetings when my oldest daughter was in kindergarten. They just wouldn’t have it. There was some excuse and then a “Maybe next time.”
I didn’t want to gossip about this mom or that dad, and I didn’t want to talk about shopping for shoes. I hadn’t seen the latest girly, romance flick, and I hadn’t read the newest romance or self-help book.
My contribution to the group’s conversation: “The culture I’ve been incubating in Microbiology class for the past couple of weeks looked so cool!” and “I can’t wait for the next Resident Evil/ Tomb Raider/ Final Fantasy game to come out. The trailer looked so cool!”
I mention in this post what I think other moms see when they first meet me or get to know me a little bit.
Now that I homeschool… I still have the same problem. Only I’m fairly certain it’s mostly my fault this time around.
I’m older now (37) and I’ve matured some. I just got tired of trying and I got used to not being sociable. And I’m more comfortable in my weirdo skin now and don’t have the patience to deal with judgmental bitches anymore.
I focus more on my kids’ education now and broadening their worldview. I would be that teacher in the picture above if I became a science teacher – “Hey kids! Wanna try a cool experiment?” I’ve actually considered teaching. Scary, huh?
My only worry now is for my toddler. My teens have their own activities, and I don’t need to coordinate play-dates for them. My toddler, however, will not be put into public school, so I will have to become more sociable than I am now to get her the social interactions that she will need. Though I have found that homeschooling moms are less judgmental and much more accepting and genuinely nicer than their public school counterparts.
*sigh* I just hate having to leave my house.
I think the other moms that I would probably get along with hate leaving their houses, too.
I totally lost where I was going with this post.
That’s another thing. Because of my ADD, when I start talking to someone about something, I go off on a bunch of different tangents. Then I totally forget the initial point I was trying to make. It’s embarrassing to say the least.
I stop talking mid-sentence and say, “Huh. I completely forgot where I was going with this.” I giggle nervously and try to play it off. Then there’s that uncomfortable silence, and I can see how truly unnerved the other mom is.
My neighbor has toddlers. She seems nice enough and a little weird like me. We don’t get to talk much because I hate leaving my house and she’s never home.
I think I’ll ask her today if she wants to set up a play-date. I’ll let you know how it goes.