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How The Hell Am I Supposed To Do THIS?!

It’s been about 4 years since the “remodel” of our house started.  It quickly became a complete tear up, or down, and has now reached the point where I can see a pinprick of light at the end of the proverbial tunnel.

I am having a party on Saturday.  My daughter turned 15 this week, and well this IS her house, so finally her birthday will be here come hell or high water.  OK, I probably shouldn’t have said high water since we are having a day of monsoon like storms.

We started the clean up last week.  It started slow with me staring and blinking so hard you could probably hear it.  I then cried numerous times while picking things up in a room that we used to put EVERYTHING in.  Every time I picked something up a creepy crawly thing would appear, or some kind of gross event.  Gross enough to make me gag or just think to myself that I can’t believe this part of the house is so freaking disgusting.

I am so ashamed of myself.  I cannot believe it got to this point.  I was not raised like this and neither was my husband.  He apologized saying he was a hoarder, I apologized for just not doing anything about it.  We are both at fault here.  At least we intervened on our own, that’s the bright side.  Working together at first was really tense.  Then something really cool happened.  We started working TOGETHER!  Laughing and giggling til tears streamed down our faces.  The accomplishments at the end of each day gave us a sense of purpose and has brought us closer.

Finally true pride in my home has hit me.  I know what happened.

As a child and into adolescence I grew up pretty rough.  I would say poor at times, other times just scraping by.  My mom used to take us to the area that I live now and talk about living here someday, or we would just looked at the houses and dream.  My mom would take us down to the beach that I now look at every day and say that we could live like this if we worked hard with our minds, not our hands.

So here I am.  I have arrived.  I used to feel like this was not permanent.  I don’t know why.  I would look around and think “Take it in, because it will be taken from you.”  I have no idea why I would think like that.  It was almost like I never let this truly feel like my home.  Well damn it!  IT’S MINE! FINALLY!

My daughter deserves a house that isn’t sheet rock and plywood floors anymore.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s not a dump by any means, it has just been neglected in some areas while fixing the others.  FIXING, like putting it back together.

2 days to go.  Still need to pressure wash, get 7 or 8 ladders out of the living room/entry way, clean up tools such as tubs of mud and trowels.  Vacuum up the dust from sanding the walls.

Now that I have actually written this I know exactly how to do this! Image

I am truly grateful for all that I have.  I am even more grateful for throwing a lot of stuff out!  Simple is really easier.  No clutter, both in my house and mind.

This is not the hardest I have ever worked, but something was so hard about it.  Letting go of the guilt now and cleaning this shit up.  Time to knock it off and take control of my life.


Why Do Weird Things Happen To ME, Like Cellulitis of The Nose?


So, about 5 days ago the bridge of my nose hurt when I touched it.  I thought maybe I had a deep pimple or something. 

Over the last 5 days it has become red and swollen and hurts like an SOB when I touch it.  It looks like someone punched me right in the nose.

I didn’t have any injury BUT I did have my teeth cleaned last week.  I’m pretty darn sure this is cellulitis.  I don’t have any sinus issues and it’s moving up my nose to my eyes.

SO, I call my Dr.’s office to make an appointment because this is NOTHING to mess around with.  Cellulitis is an infection, usually staph, that will eventually EAT YOUR FACE OFF, or wherever you happen to get it.

The receptionist said there weren’t any appointments and maybe I just had a pimple.  IDIOT… OK didn’t I say I was a nicer person in a post a few days ago?  I am not nice when I think something is going to eat my face off.

I called another Dr.’s office and I go in at 11:30.  The lady there new exactly what I was talking about.  WHEW!

My advice to anyone with this weird thing is to go to ANY Dr. AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!  I have seen this before many times.  My grandma had it while I was her caregiver and more than a few of my “bad guys” had it from needle sticks.  It appears suddenly but seems benign, just like me “Oh, I must have some deep pimple forming” then within days it takes over.

Wish me luck, it’s only 8:42.  I wish I could go NOW.

The funny thing is if this were anyone else I would say “Make an appointment today, it’ll be just fine.”  BUT, because it’s my nose all I can think of is this crap spreading to my brain… lol. OK not funny, because it can. 

I will get back to you all and let you know if my self diagnosis was correct.  I could be way off and it’s sinusitis, but I doubt it.

I don’t feel well either.  It’s about 65 degrees in my house and I’m so cold I have winter clothes on.  Not to be gross but my nostrils started to sting last night.

Has anyone else had this happen to them?  If so, what did they do? 

I’m a big baby when it comes to infections.  They scare the crap out of me.

Stay healthy everyone!

HA! I must be sick I typed “love you” LOL!

Then deleted it, then told you anyway. Em

Modular Art Walls Are NOT for the Lighthearted DIY!


We just installed one side of a modular art wall called Dune.  First of all I thought it was WAVES and the name on the box totally threw me off..lol.

The wall is 8′ by 6′.  It is made out of compressed gypsum.  It comes in tiles.  Square tiles.

You “tile” the wall with the tiles.  Line it up and glue and screw. 

Then comes the hard part.  Finishing.

I have been mudding and sanding, mudding and sanding.. I am going to be an expert soon, or wrap my head in the plastic wrap. 

My Dad is on his way over today.  Hopefully he’ll have fatherly advice plus I know he sheet rocked for a time.

Now I know why rich people have these.  They have them INSTALLED. 

We are now having an issue finding led lights to downlight the wall.  The prices range from like $7 to $300…WHAT!  So all we really need are the cans then we can change out the bulbs..or that’s the plan anyway.

Now the rest of the house is on hold because I can’t tear myself away from this wall. 

If any of you are thinking of doing this make sure your tiles fit together REALLY TIGHT!  Although there are male and female tabs that allow them to click together, it really isn’t that easy.  Nothing is that easy.  Each tile has been at least one man hour, or woman hour to finish.  I have a few seams that are filled..like less than 1/2″, but I’ll take whatever I can right now!

So far it looks beautiful, so I like it.  Maybe the other side will be easier?

Good luck.

Dear readers if anyone has done this I could use any advise as to the mudding and sanding.

Thank you in advance!Image